Early Dismissal
Posted on February 9, 2015 3 Comments
“Keep the wipers up,” he says – I do –
and yet the ice still collects to glaze
my windshield, later my mittens glue.
Standing wipers visible through the window’s haze,
he calls to remind me warmly that
this sleet will soon change to snow.
“Remember to wear your hat,”
he repeats, as I interrupt – I know.
Into the icy drive – “Don’t hit the wall,”
I imagine he says – I veer left,
my glistening mittens and the sprawl
of frost ahead. Smugly deft,
I brake, just as the garage door appears,
alight skidding indoors for tea, though I’d rather a beer.
Plush Plight
Posted on January 30, 2015 Leave a Comment
A light layer of dust may coat my eyes,
but I still see you haven’t been here,
and I wonder where you’ve gone.
The dust cakes the crevices
of your wheelchair,
but I’m still soft, you know,
willing to console you
here on the foot of the bed,
my untied sneaker dangling,
my shirt neck stretched.
I see myself in the reflection of your framed football jersey,
a pretend birthday cupcake nestled in my paw,
and I know your birthday has passed –
twice already –
but you haven’t been here.
I’m not surprised, though.
I’ve seen the rest of them come in
to stroke my fur listlessly
and stare –
sometimes even cry –
at the decals of stars and planets
glowing on your ceiling,
and I know you won’t be back here.
I want to tell them I miss you, too –
that our plights are the same –
but my face is forever knitted pleasantly
into a thin smile.
Margherita
Posted on January 22, 2015 Leave a Comment
It began as a flirtation,
with me gnawing on your crunchy outer rim
like a firm ring of Saturn –
not colorful or rocky,
but solid, circular, celestial –
to me, your attraction’s main event, really,
before sliding seductively underneath your middle
and becoming almost an afterthought of your taste.
Meshed with the red of tomatoes –
as if thrown in anger at your middle
by a gang of brazen hecklers,
then splattering haphazardly,
your oaf-like mozzarella pieces
stained and stunned innocent bystanders,
rubbery and flimsy, half-melting in defeat
at the inevitable heat of it all.
Oh, but the savoring of all that came later.
Every day –
12:06 p.m. to be precise –
the sturdy kite of your sweetness overspreading the air,
tails of
oregano
garlic
basil
trailing behind.
Penn Bound
Posted on January 20, 2015 Leave a Comment
I always look to your window –
blurred with dirt as we depart abruptly.
Eyes disoriented
by the hazy platform view,
heart in my throat (yes, even now),
my hand slides nonchalantly
off your greasy pole
while I struggle to remain standing,
instead stumbling forward
ineptly.
You’re always greasy,
whether I go high or low,
a trick I learned from somewhere –
that if I must place my hands
on something,
let it be where the least
hands have been.
At least.
But I am at home
with all your grimy molecules;
the company is just fine.
This guy slumped in the corner here –
drooling whiskey
underneath the faded map –
he’ll be pressed against me in a few more minutes,
vying to squeeze past
through the door marked
TRACK 1
wide awake and refreshed by then.
I’ll let him by.
It’s the trip underground
– buried without dying – I love.
I don’t need a seat.
Soon We Will be Good Friends, I Think
Posted on January 19, 2015 Leave a Comment
Below a starburst transom of sturdy weeds I rest, looking upward.
Within the heavy stone touching the back of my head
your grip convenes momentarily, almost on a whim,
so that the tangle of my hair –
pretending itself a pillow –
is like the backs of the houses I see before me,
exposed and empty.
Years away, yet, from our formal introduction,
this moment is strangely a future respite from your chorus of forbearance
which never quite sings.
With the din of your detritus pitilessly on its way to inter me,
I have only soon to hear the boredom of your unchanged note –
over and over – and will even someday beg you to play it
for a new set of ears, returning the gossip and Schadenfreude of your slaves carefully to your door, sworn enemies.
My father, whistling Stormy Weather in the driveway,
is only a few feet away in those sturdy weeds, dirty and green.
Sturdy, like you –
the clutch of your malice impossible to loosen once known.
And though I don’t yet know you, we have met peripherally this day.
Soon we will be good friends, I think.
I know.
Begin
Posted on January 1, 2015 Leave a Comment
This day bounces
off the mellowed slate,
which is neither clean, nor fresh
but winnowed by the past
and obliged to begin again –
fallibly, humbly,
and hopeful
that the sunlight
through the blackened
sticks of winter trees
is the proof.
Los Mangles Rojos
Posted on December 16, 2014 Leave a Comment
1.
There was a truck, back opened and piled with soiled towels, idling on the narrow stamped cement path. A sour smell of dampness, sweat, and burgeoning mildew – not only the physical truck – impeded his grumbling scooter. It was the same every evening around this time. Thoughtless day laborers, hired to collect the mountains of laundry created by thoughtless hotel guests, cared only for how quickly they might receive payment for this menial task.
And so Tico slowed, then stopped, one foot on the ground and the other lightly resting on the gas, hand squeezing the whining brake.
“Quitarse del medio,” he muttered through gritted teeth. But there was no one around. The truck’s cab was empty, passenger door ajar, but none of the small army of riders was nearby. Tico remembered, impatiently, the pool was just down the path to the right where, likely, many more towels awaited. Perhaps at least ten minutes’ worth.
The truck would not be moving.
Hopping to one side, he guided the scooter slowly through the tangle of short bushes abutting the truck, cursed the black smear of grease which appeared on his fresh white shirt, and again seated himself on the scooter when he was a few feet past the truck. As his foot pressed the gas, he felt his cell phone vibrating in his pocket.
But he already saw Tomasa leaning against the stucco gate. And when she saw him, she picked up her bag and flagged him down like a motoconcho on Spanish Avenue.
“Hey,” she breathed into his ear, sitting behind him just as he sped up again, past the resort entrance and the grim-faced guard with his rusted shotgun. The sky was periwinkle, filled with a dusky coldness already coloring the western horizon, and Tomasa did not look back at the guard that evening.
2.
Definitions are useless, thought Tomasa, focusing on the vibrant statue with its bared teeth gleaming down at her. They are bulky, tawdry, overblown and – ultimately – imprecise, if not wrong. That Pre-Columbian motif she always understood to be so sinister, so threatening, was only a smile, after all. And she smiled at this, or imagined she did, unable to tell if the crunching she felt in her mouth was granules of sand or her pulverized teeth.
And Tico, whom she had thought to be so benign, so gentle – had also turned out to be the opposite.
The statue continued smiling at her as she lay in the dirt under the red mangroves. Aside this seldom traveled path, she was confident she would not be found, and was, surprisingly, relieved.
3.
The heavy sack of dirty towels stank of rotten eggs, along with the usual damp rank, rendering the added aroma indiscernible. Almost imperceptible. So that when Pedro lifted it above his head, only vaguely acknowledging its extra weight with a low grunt, the smell couldn’t be distinguished from the nearby mangroves crowding the waterside. Deep into the truck, the bag settled into the other towels.
Tomasa handed Pedro the crisp bills, smiling, “Buenos noches, mi amigo.”
The guard watched the truck leave the gate, resting his weight on the shotgun. His hand first grasped the barrel, then lifted it near his nose, as he thought he smelled the residue of its having been fired. Briefly sniffing his hand, he watched Tomasa ride past him out of the gate, waving.
Hastily, he waved back to her, and the gun fell.
A Dog for Christmas
Posted on December 12, 2014 Leave a Comment
What she remembered distinctly about the fire was the air. That it was embedded with caustic molecules, invisibly smoldering just underneath her nostrils. How that air had shocked her lungs with each breath. And the dog, of course; she remembered the dog. The charred heaps of garbage, the cluttered debris, the murky bits of interior walls, jutting and exposed – those were peripheral, and had faded away easily in the years following, as had the memory of the building’s squalor and uneven disarray. The air and the dog, though, remained.
Smoky was the dog. Not her dog, but a neighborhood dog. In the afternoons, he sat quietly outside the No. 1 Chinese Kitchen, rapt by the tang of garlic beef and sesame chicken, oranges and soy sauce, each time the door was pushed open and closed by the bored toddler whose mother worked there. She didn’t know if he even belonged to anyone, and just assumed he lived in the corner building, skulking home after dark to one of the apartments. She had followed him one day as he plodded around the back past the dumpster, losing sight of him behind it.
Smoky wasn’t his name, but it was what she called him, his coat a grayish brown, dotted with charcoal. A mutt and a loner. Walking home from school, she locked eyes with him, and his tail wagged almost imperceptibly as she approached. It was as happy as he could be to see a human, she imagined, and so never faulted him for his muted enthusiasm. She herself had only a marginal reserve of enthusiasm to offer a select number of humans. Smoky, emotionally perceptive – like all dogs – understood.
She had once asked for a dog for Christmas, back when she was still selfish enough to believe gifts might be given. There was never a Christmas dog; but, one day, there was Smoky, who may as well have been hers. Standoffishly, they spent afternoons together roaming Broadway – not quite together, but nearby each other – aloof partners. Last summer, to pass the empty school-less days, she had taken to picking flowers from the misplaced garden outside the community health center and wandering forlornly, Smoky in tow, in an attempt to imitate a street urchin. Unsure of exactly what a street urchin was, she felt akin to its unpleasant sound, and pretended to offer the flowers for sale to passers-by who, of course, ignored her.
She was not homeless, but thought she might be one day, so it couldn’t hurt to practice.
The day after the fire, she found Smoky. Lying on his side, motionless, his fur appeared synthetic. Streaked with greasy markings, it was as though he had been flung from a window by a careless child with dirty hands. When she breathed in the air, she knew he had burned in the fire. She had faintly smelled smoke the night before as she slept in her bed a few blocks away, unalarmed – since almost anything could be burning at any time in that neighborhood.
But her stomach sank when she saw him. Although she could not – would not – cry, her eyes stung as the pungent air snaked underneath her eyelids.
She clenched her eyes closed, and kept walking.
Libera me
Posted on December 5, 2014 Leave a Comment
Late November peppers the sky with cirrus clouds,
blackened underneath, and suggestive of cold rain.
Rain which may fall
sometime soon –
but not today –
then, presently, a screeching-halt sunset descends,
assaults,
roads curving into evening,
lined with empty see-through buildings illumined by the practiced forlorn of nightfall.
How it skulks along the edges –
of sky
of earth
of perception –
easily, comfortably,
so that when you read the story of your life in the dim nightfall,
it is magnified by hopefulness and disappointment,
beginnings and endings,
where you came from and how you got there,
all jumbled together, as you imagine twirling madly in pleated plaid,
once again belly-laughing,
knee socks dropping to gooseflesh covered ankles.
This is where you began,
and to where you can always return.
Soon there will be moonlight,
also practiced in its forlorn,
yet
set
free.
The Eighth Sea
Posted on November 13, 2014 Leave a Comment
The eighth sea brims with absurdity,
while mangled mangroves just ashore
absorb it.
The farce exudes itself plainly –
though not particularly,
in that it is not so recognizable
at first.
It sinks in, over time,
and through the twisted roots
coils upward.
All the while, underneath,
as the eye is unmindful,
the core soaks up every drop –
and with it, integrates every morsel,
until absurdity blooms into acquaintance,
then slithers into the absolute.
And so, the eighth sea defrauds even itself,
defrocked by its own disbelief.
Absurdity flows acidic that way –
easy to swallow
at first –
then poisonous.
Sinking again into the twisted roots,
it loops back below,
where all fraud abounds.











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